From Madness to Mercy
I grew up with a family who didn’t have faith in God. I was going to church with my neighbors but still did not have Christ as my savior. I had problems with anger, depression, and bitterness. My focus was on getting out of my circumstances. I was looking for peace, happiness, and a shelter from the madness; I looked for these things in other people.
God drew me to him through my time at The Salvation Army, and through those people I sought safety in. I was about thirteen when I truly accepted the lord, it was a Good Friday service and I had visitation with my mother that day, after visitation I went home to find a suicide note from my father. I went to the service and accepted Christ as my savior, and God as a father that would never leave me.
Christ being in my life means many changes; I had those things I was always searching for. I was finding myself wanting to learn all about God and to have him be in control of my life. Being a Christian is having faith in and learning who Christ is, and trying to be like him. James 1:2-4 says:
“2 Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. 3 For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. 4 So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be perfect and complete, needing nothing.“
God has been working in me to conquer fear, fear of joylessness, and the fear of inability. God has given me the opportunity to do his work. He gave me the strength to endure; he will equip me to do his work.