I have always known who Jesus is. I had heard about him every Sunday for the entirety of my life. He’s the son of God, and he could save me from my sins if I would simply ask him into my heart. I can even remember a funny story from when I was four years old. My mother had to calm me down because I was afraid that Jesus coming into my heart would hurt a lot and maybe kill me. She explained to me that it didn’t mean I’d literally have someone living inside my heart, but that I simply needed to love and obey him. However, it wasn’t until I was in my early 20s that I really began to understand what she was talking about.
My college years were years of doubt and questioning for me. I really didn’t understand who God was or why the world was full of so much evil and hatred. I would let everything get to me, and I started to become sad and miserable. God really spoke to me through my college roommate, who is a Christian and a Salvationist. She would constantly tell me about the true nature of God, about his love for me and that I could turn to Him for anything. She constantly prayed for me and reminded me to pray whenever I was faced with hardships. One verse she shared with me was Romans 8:6. It says:
“So letting your sinful nature control your mind leads to death. But letting the Spirit control your mind leads to life and peace.”
Over time, I came to understand that not only did God love me, but that he loved me unconditionally. No matter how much I messed up, or how much I sinned, my heavenly Father would never leave me. I’d never experienced such love on earth before, and it has filled me with peace and joy. That was the start of my new life in Christ.