I was raised in a loving, Christ-centered home. I grew up spending every spare minute helping others and doing the deeds you would expect of a good Christian. In college, life circumstances were out of my control and I questioned God. If He was real, why was He allowing me to suffer when I always tried please Him? I decided that I was going to live life the way I wanted to from that moment on. This choice resulted in a rebellion lasting three years and led me to sin, pain, and despair.
In the spring of 2008, I laid in bed crying to myself. I was failing miserably in my job, relationships, and life in general, and I couldn’t handle it anymore. I was empty. I realized that without God in my life, I had no hope. I wondered how God could forgive someone like me when I spitefully sinned against Him. Fortunately, I decided to trust God even though I wasn’t sure what the future held.
With my trust in the Lord, He guided me through drastic changes to my lifestyle. It was one of the most difficult times in my life, but God proved Himself to me. He showed me that His love and forgiveness is real and available to anyone, no matter what they have done in the past. The Lord also filled the emptiness that I felt inside with a new purpose in life. He surrounded me with people who cared and accepted me. I discovered a peace in God that I couldn’t find anywhere else. During the difficult times when I feel that I am too weak to go on, I imagine God saying to me the words in 2 Corinthians 12:9 which says, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness” (NIV).