Growing up, I was raised in a Christian household. My parents are both ministers and love the Lord. They strived daily to teach me, my older sister, and older brother the importance in having a relationship with God. I knew who Jesus was, that He died for my sins, and because of His death I could have a new life in Him. I was always a good girl. I did as I was told and never wanted to even remotely cross “the line” for fear of punishment or embarrassment. I always felt in control with what was happening around me, I felt that I had to fix any problem that came my way.
On April 15, 2008, my family’s life changed forever. My niece, Anna Kathleen, was born with Down Syndrome. It was then that I realized that I couldn’t fix everything. I felt like I was spinning out of control. It was at this point that I realized that I needed to let God control things, not me. I met Christ as my Savior in a whole new way that day. Today, I realize that I’m not in control of all I want to be. I understand that I can’t always solve the things I want to. I have learned to rely and trust in what the Lord brings my way, even if I don’t understand. I believe that God is bigger than the circumstance and that He will carry me through it all. I know He can do this because I’ve seen how Anna has taught my family so much about love; more than we could have ever known without her. Proverbs 3:5-6 says, “Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.” I understand that when I follow what God has set out for me and I follow his commands, that there is no reason for me to need to be in control because He is and in His control I find peace.