Out of the Ashes
I was completely broken and alone. As a young adult, I felt the need to fill a void. I began to look for love in all the wrong places. I wanted to feel like someone loved me so I invested myself in ungodly relationships. When those relationships didn’t work out I began to feel depressed and I began cutting myself. I felt as if nobody understood what I was going through and I hardened my heart. I had been hurt so many times that I refused to let anyone in to see the real me.
A friend invited me to come to The Salvation Army. I fell in love immediately; the people were always kind to me. Despite my sin and shame, they cared about me. They cared about me! I continued going to the corps but lived a double life. The day before I became a senior soldier I began to cry. I realized that I was not giving God everything and I was not living a Christian lifestyle. I needed to change before I committed myself to become a soldier. In that moment, I gave everything up. I remember sitting in the lobby of The Salvation Army sobbing and asking God to change my heart.
Ever since that day, I have been completely changed. I am continuing to grow everyday and I never want to go back to where I was. I am now living life to the fullest and trusting in God’s plans. By bringing God into my life and letting Him have all of me, He has done some amazing things. I am the youngest cadet in training and looking forward to my life as an officer. Despite my brokenness and faults, God had a plan to use me. I am confident that He will continue to use me in my ministry.